Tuesday, August 3, 2010

Coming to a realization

There are many times when I'm literally saying "No I don't want to go to the gym. So, I'm not going to the gym!" I have an issue with rebelling still and I'm almost 23 lol!!

I don't think it has to do with not wanting it because I want it so bad I can actually visualize myself in all the new clothes that E has promised me....this is a promise he doesn't know about but will have no complaints when I actually pull it off! lol I know I'm so bad!! Like I was saying, I can see myself in the body I want which is a big thing for obtaining goals you've set for yourself. I think one main reason I am able to visualize myself like this is because I was once in the body that I, during that time, thought was so horrible, but now I am dying to look like that again...... Here's a picture.....But one of my biggest problem is I am lazy. Lazy as hell. Yes, I can admit it!! As much as I'm lazy, I'm an even bigger procrastinator!! Along with those two I am a foodie. I LOVE food. Which is my biggest problem of them all. Like I noted in an earlier post. My body burns about 1900 calories but I'm INTAKING about 2900 calories. I'm eating/drinking 1000 more then I can burn which explains these extra pounds that are so difficult to get rid of.

I've come to a conclusion. Officially with out going back because once its in "writing" its out for good, when it comes to goals that is!

After much boasting about how I will lose this weight with out changing my diet and realizing that after 3months with very little change its obviously not working, then having the proof that of caloric intake/burning. I have to change! When I blogged about the calories I started weight watchers program. It onlylasted a couple days.

I am going to start the program again tomorrow morning. I will allow myself 1 cheat day since like I said I am a foodie. We often go out to eat at restaurants and when that happens I know I wont be able to eat the normal foods I would have eaten and if I do I wont be able to eat as much. I am allowed 29 points a day which will MAKE me drink more water because like I said, I'm a foodie and I'd rather eat food then drink something that tastes great lol!! Lord help me I need prayers with this. I know I am a strong person but I'm not sure I can keep the strength that is needed for this. In fact... I will actually start posting what I'm eating, how many points it is every day.


  1. I caught myself nodding my head for every single thing you said. I am LAZY and a foodie as well and it's damn well hard to break those habits. I want to break them but it's so easy to sit back into that old routine. I am really trying to change NOW but I feel like that gray cloud is looming. The good part about it all is this "there are always going to be bad days, but you have to pick yourself up and keep going to have good days." everyone "cheats" and the bad stuff is okay. "in moderation" We can have that piece of chocolate and that burger but it has to be "in moderation" not every week, but every 2 weeks or once a month. it's hard to get there but I think we can do it.

  2. I definitely agree... what exactly is moderation hahahaha... That word doesn't exist in my vocab lol

    No I'm kidding! I do agree though!